its nothing personal

My heart’s been beating unusually fast the past few months, on and off, and I think its related to high blood pressure. But I hope I’m alright. My fingers are numb, I feel awful emotionally. I engage myself in online activities (healthy ones).

Haven’t been doing much except for a meetup with poly mates (see liyun’s blog for pics). Sometimes I dislike my mentality. I dislike others with such mentalities too, only to find out that I’m like that as well.

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You know, when I heard from Mum that the filmng locations a Universal Studios was being burnt down due to a huge fire, I was going 'NO WAY! You're kidding me'.

And indeed she wasn't. That place is one of my favorite places when I went to America some weeks back. I got to see King Kong, the various studios and really cool effects. Its like a piece of me being burnt as well I can't tell you how mch I adore that place and how heart-broken I am (as if my condition isn't bad enough). I even have plans to visit that place again.

I could still remember clearly that when I first stepped into Universal, I had this huge smile on my face for whatever reasons. But perhaps, I should be proud to say that I've been there before.

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I don't know what games are being slapped into my face right now but I guess I should maintain my cool about it.

I got my head checked at 4:16 AM .