its nothing personal

I feel so guilty. Why does everyone treat me so well while I'm all mean and nasty to others. I'm sorry, really sorry.

You still remembered me. And I'm actually touched because looking back at what I've done, I really don't deserve any of it. Everyone around me treats me so well that I've become spoilt and often take things for granted.

You guys will ALWAYS be a part of me. And time has proven that you guys are unforgettable. Once again, I miss you and I'm sorry.

Many people have been trying to cheer me up during this period of time. Thank you all so much. The lame jokes, the company, the late night gossips and the chats. Because of all these, I can't help but feel blessed.

I'll try to move on.

I HATE YOU. YOU BITCH, YOU'RE NOTHING BUT A WASTE OF TIME AND OXYGEN ON THIS PLANET. YOU THROW YOUR NASTY TEMPER AT YOUR FOLKS. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THEY LOVE YOU? HOW MUCH THEY CARE FOR YOU?

THEY SCOLD YOU, NAG AT YOU BECAUSE THEY HOPE YOU'LL BE A BETTER PERSON IN LIFE. YET, ALL YOU DO IS TURN A DEAF EAR AND KEEP THINKING THAT YOU'RE RIGHT. YOU RETARDED SLUT. YOU ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU WANT. HOW SELFISH CAN YOU GET. HAVE YOU SPARED A THOUGHT FOR YOUR PARENTS?

I HATE YOU. I HATE MYSELF. BECAUSE I AM YOU.

At this point of time, I feel like I'm the most miserable person on the planet.

I got my head checked at 11:00 PM .